I look at everybody else, and I see them smiling, genuinely happy. I look at my life, and this is rarely the case. I look at the things that they have which I don't, and it seems to be the things I can never have which are intrinsic ingredients to their happiness. They take it all for granted, and I sit in silence, wishing that I could have a normal life, but knowing that I will always be different. Always be frowned upon. Always negative. Always cynical towards others.

I know I'll never smile the way the average person smiles. I know I'll never have that happy bouncy outlook on life. I know I'll never put a smile on the face of everybody I meet. I know I'll never be the one to change the world. I know I'll never be happy with anything I do.

I know I'll never be truly happy.

But I'll be as good a person as I can be. My children will be proud to say that I am their Father. They will look up to me and know that they can talk to me, ask me anything. And I'll tell them what they need to hear. I'll change this young persons life for the better, and make myself proud of my parenting. Nobody needs to go through what I've gone through, and it sickens me to even think of myself sitting back and doing nothing for an orphan child. I myself feel like an orphan. Yes I had a parent, but she was never there for me. She was just a birthing pod.

I'll never be happy until my child is happy, and well protected.
This is my one aim, and I will succeed.